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Goodbye May
Wednesday, May 21, 2014 9:21 PM | 0 Note
It such a tough week for me to face through. Everything screw up and I just don't know what should I do to make it better. Sometimes life seems really unfair. It makes you want to give up on everything that you did, seriously. Maybe this is what they want to make them satisfied. I really wish that I was strong enough to face it alone but no matter how hard I tried, it always end with tears. I just don't know why, tears keep rolling down my eyes this few days. I'm hurt. I had an argument with my dad. It have been 8 days we were not talking to each other. At the first place, it was my fault. But I did say sorry to him and he already forgive me. Then until something unexpected things happened the next day, he really mad at me till now. It was not my fault lah sia. Haih, I feel so lifeless being like this. My dad is the only one who knows to make me happy when I'm not in a good mood, my inspire, my hero, the one that I loved the most after my mom turns up to be like strangers to me right now. This situations really kills me day by day. He seems to hate me and it really so so so sad. I rather push away all my feelings than to see my dad disappointed like this. I don't want to be in relationship. I don't want to have a crush on anybody. Losing boys who got nothing to do with me is so much better than losing my dad. Family comes first. Moreover, I'm still young and this is not the right time to be in love. I'm not that desperate to have a boyfriend. For me, single life is so much better than couple. You want to know why? It is because you are free to do anything that you want without being control with someone, no need to waste your time on someone who you don't know either he is your 'Mr. Right' or not, you not wasting your tears for someone who don't deserve it, and the most important reason why I don't want to be in relationship anymore is because my mom and dad doesn't like it. I know what I did in past was not right but no matter how I regret it, I couldn't turn back the time. So as I move forward, I should start to fix every mistakes that I did. Try to make a good improvement within myself. I gave up already with my past BUT, now it's time for me to move on. Seeking for a new and better life as my student's life were about to start in just a few weeks. I'm so glad to move out from here. I'll continue my studying, Diploma in Civil Engineering at UITM Johor. I'm gonna miss my family and friends soon, for sure. All the chilling time we had together will be the best memories that I've ever had for my entire life. Being friends with you guys were so great. Thanks for making me laugh, wipe my tears, be there for me when I need someone to rely on, having fun with me and so on. Thanks for everything. As you guys know, each of us have our own journey to go through. To those who lucky studying at the same place, congrats lah ye. I'm so jealous but new friends are also needed right. Even though I have some new friends, but you guys will always be my Sahabat. Or else, my The Shit. I won't forget this "Everyone walks on the red carpet because they are famous. But us, walk on a tissue paper because we are The Shit". And also I won't forget my bestfriends at SMK Mutiara Rini. Love you guys always. May our friendship will be blessed and last forever. Goodluck and all the best in future. May Allah bless everything that you do. Amin.
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